i am feeling super sad now. very & super duper that i cant explain how sad i was. the number of times my heart sunk was countless. i just wanna cry non-stop, let it out and everything. which i almost did on my way home. maybe i am just not cut to be such a person. thats really really demoralising. i have to strike off one of my targets almost every single day this week.


i gave my everything, put in my best. i reciprocated back whatever was wanted. in the end, it was me who lose out.all i ever learnt was trust no one. i still believed in helping one leads to another. i felt such stuff is crap. especially now. i got to be wary, and live as though i am in battle field every single day of my life.

today i was arrow shot again. directly right onto my heart. even so, pls do not tell me straight in my face that you did not do what you wanted to. its really very hurtful. seriously. thank you.

just totally not in my best of mood. bad year.

TRUST NO ONE
TRUST NO ONE
TRUST NO ONE
TRUST NO ONE
TRUST NO ONE
TRUST NO ONE
TRUST NO ONE
TRUST NO ONE
TRUST NO ONE
TRUST NO ONE
TRUST NO ONE
TRUST NO ONE
TRUST NO ONE
TRUST NO ONE
TRUST NO ONE
TRUST NO ONE
TRUST NO ONE
TRUST NO ONE
TRUST NO ONE
TRUST NO ONE
TRUST NO ONE
TRUST NO ONE
TRUST NO ONE
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TRUST NO ONE
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TRUST NO ONE
TRUST NO ONE
TRUST NO ONE
TRUST NO ONE
TRUST NO ONE
TRUST NO ONE
TRUST NO ONE
TRUST NO ONE
TRUST NO ONE
TRUST NO ONE

7:02:00 PM

super heartbroken

;(

6:53:00 PM

As according to CMFI's "SML Approach", it simply means "Si Mi Lai-eh approach" and that's what Prof Chua says in her mind.

&&&

Great exam timetable! love it to the max! & Happy Chinese New Year! cos exams starts on the 19 Feb 2010. Kudos to that! school rocks! :D

Before i leave,


LOVE NOTE:I love you NYP because I have never had any exams before CNY in my 3 years of life there and this year there is this bonus award for having the first week of CNY as study week. Pls remind me to eat/drink lecture notes instead of having a steamboat.
:)

10:48:00 PM

THANK YOU SO MUCH & I LOVE YOU TO THE MAX! :D
HAHAHA
can you sense my displeasure

:)

11:53:00 PM

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I’m just trying to be happy, yeah
Just wanna be happy, yeah

:)

8:33:00 PM

I was browsing the testimonial section on Friendster. It was really the in-thing back then. Lol!

And, i miss my friendsss! I really wanna meet them up minus some unnecessary ones :)

Ok, I really wanna stop studying Calculus. Its always a self study thingy after every lesson. Anti-differentiation, explicit differentiation blah blah blahhhhhhhhhhhh! but, at the same time I wanna do welllll!! Dynamo anyone? Cheers! :)

7:46:00 PM

Merry Christmas!
How I wish it was snowing. Not because the weather here is too humid but, it just adds on to the Christmas feel.

I have been listening to Domino. Its cool, its nice, and Its R&B. :)

9:55:00 AM